i am so going to pass A/C test.
hahaha. i was able to balance up everything.
and as for the theory part, my teacher was confident that i'll get correct for most of them.
school is boring as usual.
i asked revathi how she felt when she found out abt "the news".
she said that she cant blame him nor her abt the incident.
its his feelings.
and she wont hate her because she didnt do anything more than as a friend.
and she wont hate him because it is his feelings; no one can control.
probably i was being selfish to myself.
i dont want to be so stupid anymore.
so i wont be so devoted to anything.
ive become more independent.
able to overcome my problems without any help.
using the same techniques that i use on others and apply it on to me.
normally i would avoid.
i try not to be dependent on her at first when we got together because i want to avoid problems.
avoid arguments.
avoid....
i did not really believe that love can cure everything.
in fact, till today.
however, things got better and i really hope for no more pain.
building trust is not so easy.
but i am still building it because i believe in giving another chance and not one more chance or last chance.
because it also gives myself a chance to love again.
able to smile again.
able to feel free from this devastating state.
i hate that feeling.
it feels like the castle in the air has collapsed.
it had collapsed a few times.
i will be sick at heart if it were to collapse again.
i feel much more enlivened since yesterday.
though the wound is not properly healed, i believe one day it will.
trying to see them as my friend and also my sister and not otherwise.
today, when i look at her... i was trying to see her as my friend.
and i know i can.
in fact, after i talked to rev, i felt much better.
though rev dont know whats going on.
she is indeed a nice girl.
probably her temper and her attitude that made everyone and i hate her so much.
why dislike your friend because of love?
stupid... stupid...
although she have put me through a lot of shit and cause me to go into depression umpteen times, she is still my friend.
as for fay, she is still my sister.
and i dont blame her for what that had happened because i believe that she didnt do anything wrong.
she was the one who feed me when i was a baby.
she was the one who looked after me when i was a kid.
she was the one who helped me quite a no. of times.
although we did quarrel until we pulled each other's hair, locked each other in bedrooms, bruises and got into trouble with mommy, she is still my sister no matter what.
deep down inside, i am trying to love her.
i am trying.
i am trying to be amenable with everything.
no one can help me.
only i can.
and i know i can.
hey everyone!!
thanks for ur concern. i am fine.
what brain scan ah??
i said maybe only.
hahaha.
anyways, wanna thank jeremy, jean, felicia, sadiq, raihan and mal for ur concern.
dont fall like i did alright?? haha.
take care peeps!
MUACKSSS.
-infatuated
hahaha. i was able to balance up everything.
and as for the theory part, my teacher was confident that i'll get correct for most of them.
school is boring as usual.
i asked revathi how she felt when she found out abt "the news".
she said that she cant blame him nor her abt the incident.
its his feelings.
and she wont hate her because she didnt do anything more than as a friend.
and she wont hate him because it is his feelings; no one can control.
probably i was being selfish to myself.
i dont want to be so stupid anymore.
so i wont be so devoted to anything.
ive become more independent.
able to overcome my problems without any help.
using the same techniques that i use on others and apply it on to me.
normally i would avoid.
i try not to be dependent on her at first when we got together because i want to avoid problems.
avoid arguments.
avoid....
i did not really believe that love can cure everything.
in fact, till today.
however, things got better and i really hope for no more pain.
building trust is not so easy.
but i am still building it because i believe in giving another chance and not one more chance or last chance.
because it also gives myself a chance to love again.
able to smile again.
able to feel free from this devastating state.
i hate that feeling.
it feels like the castle in the air has collapsed.
it had collapsed a few times.
i will be sick at heart if it were to collapse again.
i feel much more enlivened since yesterday.
though the wound is not properly healed, i believe one day it will.
trying to see them as my friend and also my sister and not otherwise.
today, when i look at her... i was trying to see her as my friend.
and i know i can.
in fact, after i talked to rev, i felt much better.
though rev dont know whats going on.
she is indeed a nice girl.
probably her temper and her attitude that made everyone and i hate her so much.
why dislike your friend because of love?
stupid... stupid...
although she have put me through a lot of shit and cause me to go into depression umpteen times, she is still my friend.
as for fay, she is still my sister.
and i dont blame her for what that had happened because i believe that she didnt do anything wrong.
she was the one who feed me when i was a baby.
she was the one who looked after me when i was a kid.
she was the one who helped me quite a no. of times.
although we did quarrel until we pulled each other's hair, locked each other in bedrooms, bruises and got into trouble with mommy, she is still my sister no matter what.
deep down inside, i am trying to love her.
i am trying.
i am trying to be amenable with everything.
no one can help me.
only i can.
and i know i can.
hey everyone!!
thanks for ur concern. i am fine.
what brain scan ah??
i said maybe only.
hahaha.
anyways, wanna thank jeremy, jean, felicia, sadiq, raihan and mal for ur concern.
dont fall like i did alright?? haha.
take care peeps!
MUACKSSS.
-infatuated
